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 today i am not sure what i'll do, but i slept so much. i am feeling well rested, i think my mommy is at work. she went in early today. i create imaginary albums, and i have song titles & i can imagine the meaning behind them and the sound. like Tiger//Hunter is about the most awful nightmare that i had the other night, i was naked in a strange exotic place, running around searching for clothes, food, water, shelter. and as i was running all around the grass, the sky was changing colors, like a pinwheel. I had the feeling that you get when you know someone is perving on you but you aren't fully sure, but you can feel it. that terrible, disgusting, mortifying feeling. I wondered who was watching me, where they were. It was a tiger--a sexual predator manifested through the form of a giant, corn syrup bloodied tiger. I have always had dreams in which tigers or big cats represent danger, i suppose because they are wild and can be violent when non-trusting. anyhow, i remember running from the tiger over and over and i reached a house, i ran into the bedroom and all of the furniture was tall and high. so i climbed up on the bed and jumped from the bed, to the nightstand, to the dresser, to the desk, to the tv-stand, and back around. i kept doing this as the tiger circled the floor below, waiting for me to fall or something. I woke up and I had already been crying in my sleep, i was drenched in sweat, and the moment i realized i was awake--i burst into hysteric crying. because i was just so terrified of that nightmare. I'd like to turn that emotion, that feeling into a song. I'm not sure how yet, though. i love most animals, and i don't hate tigers at all. i am just very afraid of them, though i think they're beautiful.